The redness of his face permits

The truth his words won't dare admit,
His sunken eyes are hid behind a darken lens
Broken doors and thoughtless words,
The tyre tracks on her dead lawn
Feeble threats and loveless debts
Prove nothing when she still steals your breath
She stands tall with strength not height
You can see the fists inside her eyes
Now its time for her revenge
Delivered acid tongue, god pity/help him
She sits there in the aftermath
And listens as cars drive slowly past
His final show, his lies
Had done nothing but cured her smile
Her bruises fade from black to blue,
Over time they slowly heal
You'll think you've grown found love again
When you break your own heart
It will never mend.

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Why do we have to trouble ourselves. With the complications of life. I am still amazed at how our brain works. We're all fucked up nymphos.

Through times on and on. I've opened my eyes.

I've been through a lot and theres more to come.

These few years have been the best in my life.

I no longer feel alone, that feeling I've dread for so long.

Has finally ceased, be careful though it might come back.

I once expected to be lavished with affection but afraid to bare myself.

But no longer am I afraid to let go, to hold tighter.

For how long I'll take to grasp that I don't live forever.

I shall take this time to be in Love.

To be in Pain.

To be in Happiness.

Hurt.

Hope.

Laughter.

Tears.

Romance.

Doubt.

To be EMBRACED.

I'm gone forever.

No turning back now.

She's the air I breathe,

She's the ground that holds me

The darkness that engulfs me

The light that saves me

The way she looks when she smiles

The eyes that holds the far miles

She's never out of my mind

Why are you so fine?

I'm happy :) Extremely am. My life's perfect right now so before the invisible man above (if he exists) takes everything away. I shall surface what's left of my heart and soul to this lady I call love.

Thank you Aly :D

This post is dedicated to Nash.

Honestly, I had no intention of "backstabbing" you. I've always been on your side since day one, when Amy dumped you and started hating you; I defended you. Even when your screams are horrible I kept it to myself cause I don't have the heart to belittle you. However, even through all this. I now know that you're an asshole.

My first intention of talking to Aly was not to get into her pants but to find out how you two were doing. I swear. But immediately we became good friends. I'm not blaming this on you but I think if you hadn't dissed me behind my back to Aly we wouldn't be as close as we are today. Don't understand? Well your so called "backstabbing" me led to me and Aly getting closer together and when I'm starting to dislike you and losing all respect for you that I once had; I started to fall for her.

I admit I'm a player and that you just don't want to see her get ruined by me. But c'mon Nash, after knowing her for two days I could tell that she was smart enough not to get into that kind of situation. Give her a little bit more credit will you? She deserves it, she isn't some little kid. I bet she can take good care of herself, she's done a good job so far. Don't you agree with me?

Its up to you which road you want to take. But to tell you the truth, if i was in your situation. I'd be happy at the fact that you can make someone I love happy. I wouldn't be selfish. Cause afterall you were my friend and if I really did love Aly like you said you loved her I'd do anything to make her happy even to the extent of giving up everything, even the hope of having her

Life's been fair to me :) Two awesome people are back where they should be. I'm always waking up to Kiera jumping on me every morning >.<>

I think the only horrible thing that is happening to me right now is the fact that my comp is sort of fucked up. And the people are only checking it out in a week or two >.<>

-School is starting soon

-Freaking out

-Need to find loopholes in the school asap

-Need a lunch partner

-Need someone who knows the school's dirt well

Its ITE Simei -.- There should be plenty of loopholes in that school. I wonder whether there will be any hot chicks in my course or not? :) Hermmmm... But than again I doubt theres any :( Its wireless tech. Enough said. Life is only about to get interesting. I should lay off on the "Influencing people's decisions" for the time being until I get things secured

I'm happy :) Even when you told me you'd come and you didn't. I was surprisingly not bothered at all. Do you know what is that called? My heart no longer is with you :D I'm no longer tied down by my feelings towards you. I'm happy that I've moved on. x)

On a slightly sadder note; I need to spend as much as I can with everyone before I head to school. School and work will take up my time so much I'm afraid my friends will be forsaken. So people! Make plans with me! I can't possible go around asking everyone out it'll be exhausting.

And yes Cassie, Ry. I do miss you guys. Alot :(

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget
These images

Well I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

- Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy

These were the lyrics that replayed in my head the moment you left

I think I'm feeling better now. It dosen't hurt anymore. And soon enough I think I'll actually move on. You've probably moved on so no point in me asking you, "How're you doing?" Cause the answer will be, "Great =)~" Even so, out of this relationship I've learned one thing; That is, I'm capable of falling in love xD I know its stupid, but since my heart's been closed for so long I was beginning to think that it was no longer possible. Neither getting to know other women nor "interacting" with them makes me feel guilty anymore. You're no longer haunting my mind 24/7. I'm no longer sulking :D And everywhere I go dosen't remind me of you anymore.

In spite of all this my heart still belongs to you >.<

Tonight I'll stay home and miss you more than you'll ever know - Cinematic Sunrise

My sore rose heart beats so hard it lathers me down. Down so low that I don't wish to get up. I can't begin to actually figure out where hurts cause it seems like my whole body is crying in agony. All the thoughts that race through my mind ends with no justice. My resolve is still as weak as ever. How I wish, I had remained as I was and to never have stepped into the light. I should have stayed in the silence. I can't believe it. I'm sad over a chick.

I hope I did mean something to you all this while but than again I could just be a passing phase to you. Love was never my thing and I doubt it'll ever will. So I'm apologizing now, that I won't put my hopes and faith in a women ever. That has always been my resolve, but I guess during those years I've let my guard down but no more. I shall survive with the love of my son and my mother.

All I want from all this is to just know. That I actually meant something to you.

Your Ex,

Joe

PS: I'm not regretting my dear, of my choice. I did it cause I love you :)

What is manipulation?

I supposed anyone reading this now would be surprised. I've been gone for awhile haven't I?

In these months I've learned and experienced life in much more detail and I believe I'm beginning to grasp an actual logical reason for trying so hard. Its funny, I've always thought love in general was the purpose behind everything but I know now I was wrong. Things just aren't that simple, unfortunately. Friends come and go, lovers come and go, everyone come and go but only one thing remains, that urge to keep looking. To look for newer friends, a new love, just someone to connect with. Just anyone. So am I that different? I ponder

I've never had a dead set reason for anything I do really. In all honesty, most of the things I do are the results of my boredom in the middle of the night or morning if you'd like to call it, like now. I'd make up games in my head and if I have the time I'd play it out as I had recently. Its pretty exhilarating when you get down to it. I apologize if any of my friends got too involved in this. I'll be pretty sure to calculate the possibilities of collateral damage next time. However, for now all I can offer are my words of apologies.

On a side note, I think its time I rekindled with my Casanova-ways.

I hope that your near future is with me

I haven't posted for quite sometime :) haha exams been a bitch so don't blame me. Anyway anybody reading this help me look for a bassist my band is in need of one really badly. www.myspace.com/lyssasrequiem << thats our page give us a listen and give us feedbacks :) People please support local music singapore won't get anywhere if you don't support local talents :D so please do

Phone totally fucked now.. soooo need to get a new one -.- it was working fine for a day or two. Probably PMS-ing or something, it has occasional mood swings.

I need to go drinking.. haven't had one in like a month ): my bloodstream is free of it now, I need more juice hahaha! should stop calling it that. okay in anycase, I found a strand of WHITE HAIR!!! I'm stressed i tell you. My first ever )': my god! argh! damn must learn to chill. take it slow.. and i think i should take up a healthy hobby, running(yes its a sport) maybe? oh well i'll figure something up

I need to chill myself out ,phone giving alot of problems i'm spoilt for choice on something[+)] haha! Well in any case, I went to get a haircut yesterday ( got caught in school, BITCH !! ) oh well atleast it feels lighter now, like fresher- it feels great actually but no one day its gonna be long, really long. Provided its after O levels.

Need to jam..
Stressed with school
And women
I need a proper sleep

Time and time again, its always the same; I kept going back and never went foward. Like a Geek to a book, i just cannot let her out of my grip and yet, she is not even anywhere near my grasps. Everytime it just leaves me breathless thinking of the time I blew it. Brings you to the thought huh? Of turning back time. huh I wish. I stayed up everynight thinking of her, of the times we used to laugh and fight. It burns my world just hearing her say "you're sweet" not saying that its bad but it reminds of the things I missed for messing up. I bet she's doing fine without me but for me? haha, yeah... I'm trying though =) And Ry if you're reading this, before hand i'm gonna tell you, I am fine =) haha just needed to let out what i'm feeling at that point in time.. Just wish i could be with her you know and that no one else could replace her

Didn't go to school today haha didn't feel like it, got alot of homeworks that i haven't done yet. Gonna finish up everything during these off days from school :)

Damn bored -.- but everyone seems to be busy

HAHA! its funny you know when i'm busy, i'm effing busy but when i'm like free i'm effing free so free that i could kill myself with this bordom... argh... okay nvm once my mum comes home gonna get money from her, go library and do my work and maybe walk around here and there +) and yes alone sadly hahah! oh well you win some you lose some

Kiera is asleep, i wanna kiss him but i'm afraid i'd wake him up :( darn..haha okay off i go now XP